It has been awhile since I have posted so here is a lengthy update along with my newest challenge!
For our 2 year anniversary my fiancé Harold surprised me with a trip to Canada to see Niagara Falls. I thought we were spending the weekend in NYC like we normally do when I visit him so when he told me we were going to Canada I was completely surprised. I even started crying because it was such a sweet gesture and just reminded me how much he loves me and goes out of his way to make me feel special! We had the best weekend traveling and exploring together and it was a little glimpse of what life will be like when we are married. No we won’t always get to travel wherever we want (although I can guarantee there is a lot of traveling in our future) but no matter what we are doing whether it is driving somewhere together, eating dinner, experiencing new things and simply living our lives we will finally be doing all of it together!
There are so many great things to experience in life but experiencing them with the person you love is simply priceless. I won’t go into too much detail about our trip just because I filmed all of it and put the videos on my youtube so here is the playlist if you would like to check out our adventure!
What I will say is that I fell even deeper in love with Harold from this trip! Every time we are together I am truly the happiest I can be and he brings that joy out of me! When we got engaged in February I was ready to marry him and loved him so incredibly much and now here we are 9 months later and I love him so much more than before and we have grown in our relationship so much as well. I can only imagine how I will feel in 7 months when I will finally walk down the aisle to the man that I love.
If you’ve been keeping up with my blog then you know that I moved home and am living with my parents until the wedding. I was very apprehensive of making this move because I hadn’t really been home for the past 4 years (I spent my summers as a camp counselor) and am very independent. I have to say it has been the best decision that I could have made. I prayed so much about it and eventually had peace. Being home has been very comforting for me and the anxiety I was feeling before has gone away. I really enjoy getting to sit down and have dinner with my parents each night and just spend quality time with them. I never thought I would be “friends” with my parents but as I get older our relationship has gotten stronger. So if you struggle to have a good relationship with your parents then don’t give up because it really can get better! My parents are rock stars and have worked so hard to provide for me and I never gave them enough credit when I was growing up! So thank you mom and dad I appreciate yall so much and love you with all of my heart!
I have been working as a substitute teacher, which has its pros and cons but mostly is has confirmed that I do not want to be a teacher (which I thought at one point). I admire and respect teachers so much but I am learning that my passion for children is not within the walls of a classroom.
Also something I have realized is that the closer it gets to our wedding the harder it gets for me. This may seem odd but because I keep loving Harold more and more it becomes harder and harder to live with him so far away. I have always been very big on taking pictures and videos with Harold but mainly because it always helped me through the hard times when I miss him a lot. Having pictures and videos to look at and remember our memories always makes Harold feel closer than he is.
Now while I have been getting a ton of positive support from my youtube, I’m sure tons of people also find it very odd. But personally I am so thankful that I have decided to make videos because it makes this even harder time for me feel so much closer to Harold because I spend a lot of time editing our videos and watching our silly moments. Also it makes it easier for me because I simply enjoy making and editing videos (I always have). I’m pretty exhausted after work each day and not being able to come home to Harold is honestly kind of sad because at the end of the day all anyone really wants to do is cuddle up and relax with their loved one and I can’t do that.
When I was in school I had a ton of homework and studying each night so when Harold was busy it was okay because I was busy too. I am glad I have rediscovered something to keep me busy that also makes me feel close to Harold. Sometimes my heart literally hurts because I miss him so much! As it gets closer to our wedding and harder at the same time as I long to be with him I really need to stand strong in my faith and lean on God. Lately I don’t think I have been doing the best job giving enough time to God so I am challenging myself for the next 2 weeks to make sure I do my daily devotion and write in my journal! This is something that I normally do but lately haven’t been as consistent with! After each week or maybe even during the week I will make a post about what I have learned or how it has made a difference for me! If you would like to join me on this challenge please leave a comment and we can keep each other accountable!
Blessings to all,