Last week I challenged myself to consistently do my daily devotion and journal so that I would be more intentional in spending time with God. Well I would be lying if I told you I have done a good job of this, because I haven’t. I have written in my journal all of 1 time, but I have been diligent in my devotions. The topic of insecurity has been heavy on my heart lately so I’ve been reading “So Long, Insecurity” by Beth Moore. So this post is pretty much me sharing my thoughts along with what I have learned!
I don’t talk about my insecurities very often, actually I don’t think I really ever talk about them because for some reason I feel like if I speak about my insecurities then they will become more real and obvious, instead of me just pretending like I am super woman and don’t have any (that would be nice).
But here is the thing, I write this blog and now have my own youtube channel because I believe in sharing my experiences in the hopes that other people can relate and maybe I can impact at least one person in a positive manner. This quote pretty much sums up how I feel, which leads me to this post. If I have insecurities my bet is that you do too.
“I usually write to discover something I myself am yearning for. If something hurts me, I conclude it probably hurts somebody else too. If something confuses me, I figure it probably confuses somebody else. If something helps me, I hope against hope that it might help somebody else. “After all, no trial has overtaken [us] that is not faced by others. And God is faithful”” (Beth Moore) (1 Corinthians 10:13)
Insecurity comes in all kinds of forms and just because someone has insecurities it doesn’t mean they cannot be confident. For me, I have a confusing mix of insecurities among my confidence and because of this sometimes it is very easy for me to hide my insecurities. Beth Moore points out “Insecurity’s best cover is perfectionism” and I couldn’t agree more. Whatever your insecurities may be, recognition is the first step toward letting God get to an issue and healing it. This can be very scary. Like I said before, recognizing my insecurities makes them more real and unavoidable, but I think it’s time to stop listening to the lies we tell ourselves and start listening to the truth that God is constantly providing us.
Once we acknowledge our insecurities we can look deeper to see the root of them. Unfortunately, most of us draw our security from people, maybe the opposite sex, maybe your parents, maybe a boss, maybe your friends or maybe the media. Most of the time those people are oblivious to the inordinate amount of weight we give to their opinions of us. It breaks my heart when I see so many girls who look to guys to evaluate if they are desirable, valuable or worthy of notice.
Or maybe your insecurities don’t come from what other people think of you but from what you think of yourself. Maybe they are fears like mine. I fear that I won’t amount to anything to be proud of. I fear that I am not good enough to make a true difference in this world. Sometimes I am filled with insecurities of being inadequate and unable for God to use me. I know in my heart that this is not true and it says in Ephesians 2:10 “If you know Jesus Christ personally, He has chosen you, too, and has appointed you to accomplish something good. Something that matters. Something prepared for you before time began.” Beth Moore says “Let Him tell you you’re worth wanting, loving, even liking, pursuing, fighting for, and yes, beloved, keeping.”
Harold and I were doing a devotion together on 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 which talks about having a thorn in the flesh and asking the Lord to take it, but instead God says “My grace is sufficient for you,” and I think this goes perfectly with a powerful statement Beth Moore makes “God can bring freedom and vision to your life because of those limitations that you would never have discovered without them. You can let your limitations make you either insecure or unstoppable.” God’s power and strength is made perfect in our insecurities and weaknesses. So many people say that “time heals” but it is God who heals so give your insecurities to God and use Him as your mirror to see and know that you are beautiful, wanted, worthy, valuable, loved and good.